Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I-ah Speak-ah Engleeeesh very goood!
I wouldn't say it holds the key to my heart, but it was nice that the metro was so easy to figure out there. It's basically impossible to get lost in paris. I went to Louvre Museum, which is super huge. I left right about the time they were closing it. Then I went down the Champs Elysees, which was totally decked out for Christmas, and to the Arc de Triomphe. Saw the Eiffel Tower and Sacre Cour and Montmarte. I loved Notre Dame. I've been in lots of gorgeous cathedrals while I've been in Europe, but I think that Norte Dame was my fave. The Saint Chappelle was gorgeous too. Somehow I managed to get myself confused for a good 20 minutes or so standing right in front of it. Apparently it's kind of inside the area where France has its Supreme Court or something and I was staring at the map going, "Ok, so Saint Chappelle should be right in front of my face, but this says it's the Justice Building... Hmmm." Eventually I figured it out. Well, at least the metro is idiot-proof.
I also got to spend some time with my cousin Becca while I was in Paris. It was so good to get to sit down and talk to her about life and get a few hints about Paris. She had been really helpful in letting me know what I should see while I was there and how I should get there. I don't know what I would have done without her.
I left paris on a night train headed for Milan. In my couchette compartment was a South African, a Pakistani, 2 Frenchmen, and an old Itaalian woman who kept insisting that she "speak Engleesh very gooood." (Half the time I couldn't communicate with her, but she was so sweet and I'm super glad she was there.) Anyway, these 2 suspicious looking French guys didn't have passports, so the conductor told them that they were going to have to talk to the police when we crossed the border. Sure enough, shortly after 1am, the police came banging on our compartment door, yelling in Italian and English about who didn't have a passport. It turned out to be those 2 guys and they didn't really understand what the policemen were asking them. They searched their bags and one of the other passenger's bags, and then took them out of the compartment. They never came back, so I guess they got thrown off or something. I didn't realize it was such a big deal. Even on international trains, I show them my eurail pass aka ticket and they've never asked me for my passport before, except that night trian.
So I got to Milano Centrale at 5:40 in the morning, got a reservation for a train to Firenze Santa Maria Novella station, paid 50 euro cents (75 dollar cents) to go to the bathroom, sat around on the floor like a hobo for 2 hours, and finally left to go back to Florence. :) I love Florence.
It really is home. I left SMN and followed my familiar path to the bus stop, got on #16, and rode out to Scandicci. My next task was climbing the hill to the villa with my backpack, whcih is difficult, but wasn't so bad. I think I'm gonna miss that hill. Anyway, I was the first person back and no one was there, so I sat outside the villa with good ol' Zeus to keep me company until Kyle got out of church and showed up to let me in. Let me tell you, I got right in the shower, and it was a good thing too. I smelled like trains, cigarette smoke, and nasty French people. Icky.
Optional villa stay was fun. For the most part, for like I whole day I was feeling really crappy, but trying to seem happy and I know it wasn't working. I think it was a relapse of what was bothering me in the Netherlands, which is probably just because I'm so exhausted and have been forgetting to take my allergy meds. Anywho, the first day, we went back to San Gimignano aka San Jimmy-John-o. It is definitley one of my fave places. Just a cool little town. I got to spend some more time in Florence, relax and plan some more free travel, and print off something like 30 pages worth of maps, buss maps, and directions. (Thank-you Harding University!) It was cool, because we pretty much ate out for every meal, unless the ladies were cooking, and I never had to buy a thing.
And so this morning, I got up after everybody except one other person had already left, said "ciao" to Sandro, walked down the Via Triozzi hill, and said good-by eto the villa, Scandicci, and Florence. It was hard, because this time, I don't know when or if I'll be back. Hopefully I'll make it back one day, but I'm not promised that. I'm not even promised to make it home. It's a crazy thought. I'm really not in control of my life, which kinda scares me. But honestly, I think I trust the One who is to do better things with it than I could do for myself, so I know I'm better off. It's like they say, "I don't know what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future." Hmm, that's comforting.
I wasn't bawling this time when I left...It was different. Yeah I love the villa, but it wasn't the same. As frustrated as I got this semester with some of my classmates and as stressed out as I seemed to be, happiness is something you remember, and I remember it as it was before. It was actually kinds creepy being so empty. The max number of us that were there this week was 7. Compared to 32. Yeah, it was weird.
Ok, I did cry a little on the train though when it left Florence. And here's what's dumb...I do have to go back through that trian station on my way to Venice on Saturday. But it won't be the same.
So now I'm in Assisi, home of good ol' St. Francis, St. Clare, and the Italian people that run my hotel and don't speak English. Like at all. The only word the guy knew in English was "Engleesh?" But I knew enough Italian to communicate with him. Which made me really happy. I have learned a little something worthwhile.
It's way colder here than it was in Florence, and it was so foggy for most of hte afternoon that I could hardly see the church I was standing right in front of.I went to the Duomo of San Rufino and the Basilica of St. Francis. My hotel is right by the Duomo, but they seriously hide the most important church building in the whole town. San Francesco took me FOREVER to find...and there are a bajillion signs that point towards it. I finally got here and went in after looking at the awesome nativity they have outside of it (Europeans LOVE Christmas)... apparently St. Francis was there when Jesus was born. lol. Anyway, I went and saw his tomb and people were like crying and praying, kinda like they were at Pope John Paul's tomb in the vatican. I wish I knoew just a little bit more about Catholicism. I've been living in the middle of it for 3 months and I still feel clueless. I don't even think I spelled it right.
Anyway so I went upstairs to see Giotto's frescoes of the life of St. Francis (I hate that I even know what a fresco is...or who Giotto is...Ok, I actually love it; it makes me feel smart.) I'm looking around and there are like 12 monks standing in a circle at the front of the room, and this policeman looking guy comes up and says something to me in Italian. All I get is "Santa Messe". Which is weird b/c besides that securit guard and all those creepy monks (who were giving me creepy hellish looks) I was the only other person in the church. I think 5 o'clock mass is actually held downstairs...maybe the monks stand around and pray during mass; who knows? So I left. It was dark adn foggy, so here I am. Sitting at my hotel with a package or Ringos (Italian Oreos) and a liter and a half of Pesca Estathe (the most delicious peach tea you'll ever have!) and writing a blog. Story of my life. Heehee.
So tomorrow I was thinking I would try to go to the Hermitage up on the mountain, but I might not want to walk 4 kilometers uphill and I'm seriously creeped out by friars now. htey are way creepier than they sound. No joke. I think they knew I wasn't Catholic and were trying to put the fear-of-God in me. Anyway, 2 weeks from today, I'll be home. Well, actually a little over 2 weeks from today... By the time I land in Georgia, it will be 11 pm on my body's timer and by the time I land at DFW, it will be 3:30am. Whew.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Hiding Place
Monday, November 23, 2009
Google maps and H&M...
I made it to Zurich safely and was immediately confused by my google maps directions. I wandered around the giant train station, going out and in every exit, until finding an ATM, getting some francs, and going up to the taxi stand. The cab driver first greeted me in Italian. How incredibly ironic. I pointed to the address on my map.
"You go over the bridge and then turn left," he said pointing out the bridge.
"Can you driver me there?"
"It's 500 meters!"
"Uh, okaaaaay..."
"Just go over that bridge and turn left."
I went over the bridge and turned left. By now my 18.5 kilo backpack was KILLING me. Then I wandered around a Zurich neighborhood in the dark for 45 minutes before finally finding my hotel. At one point, I walked down a street, realized that I had gone the wrong way, and turned around and came back uphill. When I got back to the intersection where I had started out, I realized that I had been standing in front of a big sign with the hotel logo on it. It had a big arrow and said "30m" on it. So I followed the arrow up a shady alley and arrived in my hotel room at midnight.
Zurich was not shady at all in the daytime. It was really beautiful actually. I walked to the train station. (It took me 7 minutes to walk what took me 45 minutes the night before.) After finding out that I didn't need a reservation to get to Frankfurt or Amsterdam, I set out down the street that is supposed to be like the main shopping drag in town. I went inside H&M and then realized that I could buy NOTHING because I had NO room in my backpack and no money to spare. Next time I come to Switzerland I will make sure that I have lots of money and an empty suitcase before I set off down Zurich's Bahrnhoffstrasse. Ok, I don't rememeber if it was called "Bahrnhoffstrasse" exactly, but it's the best I can do with these street names.
Then I went and saw the largest clock face in Europe at St. Peter's Church steeple. Corrie ten Boom would be proud. Of course, you can see it from all over the city, but I went up to the church. I think it was a holiday or something, because there was something going on at the church and there was a parade all along the river. I went down this cute little walkway right by the river and went into some of the little craft shops. I bought some postcards from this erally sweet and cute little lady that pretty much only spoke Swiss-German. Good thing I know the most important word: "Danke."
Except I kinda said it like an Italian or a Spanish-speaker would say it: "dahn-keh". Apparently it's supposed to be pronounced like "Dahn-kuh", or maybe it's just "Dahnk". Anyway, I don't know if she was correcting me or just thanking me back, but I've tried to say it right after that. I went on to the Coop, finding it very familiar. One entrance and not enough exits. Tons of people and very long lines. But I got some stuff to eat. My stomach had been growling and I realized that all I had eaten from my sack dinner was a clementine and a Mars bar. And I hadn't gotten up and ready in time for breakfast. It had been over 24 hours since I had eaten anything even resembling a meal. Welcome to free travel, I guess.
I left Zurich at 8 am the next morning and arrived in Frankfurt, Germany at noon-ish. I ate some sack lunch and waited for my train to Amsterdam, which arrived at like 1:30. We were supposed to get in to Amsterdam Centraal Station at 5:30, which would have given me enough time to catch the little connection to Haarlem at 5:40. We didn't get in until 5:45. I was proud of myself though. After a very short period of freaking out time I went and look at the departures for another train that would stop in Haarlem, which is like 15 minutes out of Amsterdam. Train run all the time and I missed the next one, but before I knew it, I was in Haarlem, which is just as cute as can be, even in the dark... and the rain. But it wasn't coming down too hard, so I found my hotel pretty easily.
I've decided that Haarlem is the Scandicci or the Netherlands. My hotel is on the square and all day there has been a little market going on. It was pouring down rain when I went out today. My clothes were soaked in just a matter of minutes, and my umbrella was useless against the wind. I started following my google maps directions to the ten Boom museum and, of course, walked the complete wrong direction. I can see right down the street from my hotel and somehow missed it. I turned around and came upon it. I didn't realize that Corrie ten Boom grew up next door to H&M... Anyway, her house is now. But the museum is closed on Mondays. Apparently in most of Europe, Monday is just like another weekend day. Which sorta seems like a good idea, but it was some poor planning on my part. I meant to leave for paris tomorrow, but I'll be staying in Haarlem another day. I mean that is the whole reason I came here. And that's ok. Paris will wait for me. And I can get lost again with my google maps directions...
:)
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Talking About Love.
I'm rambling alot, I know. I'm crying alot too, just FYI.
On the day that we got here, I came up to my room, and found my bed and closet with my name tags on them. On all of our beds there was a rose and 2 pieces of candy. A few days later, I ate my first piece of delicious Italian toffee chocolate peanuty candy and on the inside of the foil wrapper, there was some little piece of Italian wosdom. I don't remember it, but I thought it was cool. So naturally, I opened up the other, ate the wonderful candy, and looked at the words on the inside. I don't remeber the Italian, but the English translation of it read: "We've talked a lot about love. Now let's try to listen to it, shall we?" This is what I needed to hear. This was what would take over my semester.
While I've been here, I've been learning. And most of that learning has nothing to do with the classes I've taken. I want so much out of life, and God will give me what I need, but I feel like he's been leading me on this adventure to calm me down, to prepare me for a bigger purpose, one that I don't understand. And He hasn't revealed it to me yet, because He knows that if He did, I would never agree to it.
I don't just want to talk about it. I want to be in on it. But first, I have to learn to listen to it.
I don't have anything to be afraid of. I might have been to timid this semester, but I want to start jumping into God's will with both feet without thinking about what I'm doing first. It's such a wonderful exciting idea that I can hardly contain my excitement.
I love Italy. I love Firenze and Scandicci. I love the villa. I love my fellow HUFers and the racket they constantly make. Sometimes you have to be loud.
I don't think I can write anymore right now. I wish I had been blogging more and journalling this, but I know there are things God will never let me forget. Pray for me please. Starting on saturday, I'm spending a month travelling around Europe. God has big plans for it, I know.
:)
Monday, November 2, 2009
Pangur Ban
Pangur Ban
I and Pangur Ban, my cat,
'Tis a like task we are at;
Hunting mice is his delight,
Hunting words I sit all night.
Better far than praise of men
'Tis to sit with book and pen;
Pangur bears me no ill will;
He, too, plies his simple skill.
'Tis a merry thing to see
At our task how glad are we.
When at home we sit and find
Entertainment to our mind.
Oftentimes a mouse will stray
Into the hero Pangur's way;
Oftentimes my keen thought set
Takes a meaning in its net.
'Gainst the wall he sets his eye
Full and fierce and sharp and sly;
'Gasinst the wall of knowledge I
All my little wisdom try.
When a mouse darts from its den,
O how glad is Pangur then!
O what gladness I do prove
When I solve the doubts I love!
So in peace our tasks we ply;
Pangur Ban, my cat, and I.
In our arts we find our bliss,
I have mine and he has his.
Practice every day has made
Pangur perfect in his trade;
I get wisdom day and night,
Turning Darkness into Light.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
What am I supposed to be learning again?
David's sling is empty in his hand, stretched out across his back. His face is tense, obviously showing worry, and even fear. His body's posture differs greatly from his face, however. He seems very relaxed, neither worried nor stressed. He seems confident. Victorious.
While we are all left for ourselve to decide what point in David's battle against Goliath Michelangelo has portrayed David to be in, Cindy brought up the point that David might have already killed the giant, and is not left with the task of cutting off his head. His sling is empty because it has just been slung. His body is relaxed because he has just become the victor over not only Goliath, but all the Philistines. The worst is over. Maybe the emotion on his face is not fear or stress. Maybe it's disgust at what he has to do now. He's just a little grossed out.
It's a possibility. Creative. That's what art is about, right?
Some of my friends leaned toward the idea that David has not only killed Goliath, he's done with the battle. They talked about how the empty sling and relaxed posture were obviously the most important part of David. The way he's standing became very popular for scultures in the Renaissance, it;s true. The whole idea pf trying to capture the reality of man and all of that. Maybe the worry on David's face is because he is not left with the task of ruling over God's people. He's already been anointed, and he knows the difficulty that he will face in the future.
This is a good point too.
Art is supposed to be very personal. It doesn't only matter what David meant to Michelangelo or to Florentines or to Florence's enemies; it matters what the David means to me. Michelangelo can no longer tell me exactly what the David was supposed to symbolize or whether or not he had killed the giant yet or not. So I am left to make the decision. And I have.
I don't think David has defeated Goliath yet. There is no stone in his sling; he's hardly gotten a start on his planning. But he is prepared to use what he has to do what needs to be done. He has to fight for his people and remind the world that Yahweh is God. Yes, his face is stressed and worried. You would be scared too. Contrary to the appearance of Michelangelo's scupture, this man after God;s own heart was indeed a man, not a god. He had plenty of reasons to be afraid. He was taking the biggest risk ever, preparing to make a sacrifice. I doubt it would be possible to be cocky enough to not be frightened by the idea of going one-on-one against a giant like Goliath. And I don't think David was cocky, nor do I think Michelangelo has portrayed him this way. I think he is confident. His God will save him. He knows it. he knows what's been preomised and he knows the Power that he's fighting for. He knew in his head and his heart that the God he was fighting for was bigger than any giant, or any army, and when he came to terms with that fact, of course he relaxed. His God would always be big enough to defeat his enemies for him. Even his fear. Even his worry. Even his stress.
I'm picking up my sling. There are alot of things I'm worried about. I have alot to stress out about at this very moment. I feel like everyhting is so uncertain. But it's really not. It's going to be ok, because my God is big enough to knock all of my worry and fear right out, and taake my trembling hand and lead me through all the rest.
"I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 27:13-14
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Oh, the things you learn about Jesus from grapes...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009
"I have never seen American girls so...sober!"
On Monday afternoon, we did a scavenger hunt in Florence. I was on a team with two other HUFfers and and 4 Italian girls- Valentina, Laura, Veronica, and one more whose name I absolutely can't remember, because I couldn't even pronounce it. They were really super sweet, even though Laura was the only one who spoke English (and her English was like my Spanish) and Valentina was smoking constantly. We had an amazing time running around the city together, taking random pictures of ourselves with the landmarks we were supposed to find. I really loved Veronica. She told me about how she went to Volterra to see them film New Moon and got to meet Stephenie Meyer and Rob Pattinson. (Jealous!) It was amazing gettting to talk to her. We could hardly understand each other, but it's amazing how a language barrier can really disappear if you just want it to badly enough.
After the scavenger hunt, we went to a pizzeria with all the Italians. We sat with the people from our group and at the other end of the table, there were some outrageously good-lookin' Italian fellas. ;) We all drank out Cokes while they had glass after glass of wine. It was quite comical... Italians drink wine with their food, and most don't drink at dinnertime to get drunk. Most of the girls in our group only had a few glasses, and Laura just had water, because she doesn't drink at all. The guys there had a differnt idea though, and they drank the house wine until every bottle on our table was completely empty. And they started to get a little silly. They kept trying to get us to try some, and because they didn't speak English, it was a little harder to get them to understand than it was to get the Californians to understand. One guy even poured a little wine into the empty water glass of the girl sitting next to me. He then filled it up the rest of the way with water. "There! It's Coke!" They kept making toasts. "To McDonalds!" was probably the most hilarious. At one point, another guy made the comment in broken English, "I've never seen American girls so...sober!", which just brings me back to what I said a while ago. The Harding students that are constantly getting cycled through this ancient and beautiful city have an amazing opportunity to show these people a new kind of American, and really just a new kind of peron in general.
Ok, they turn off the internet a midnight, so I'll go ahead and finish up now. I miss everyone at home, and I get a little lonely sometimes, but for the most part, I really like the people I'm here with and I'm definitely loving Italy so far. <3