Monday, April 18, 2011

Lord, to give up, I'd be a fool.

This past weekend, I traveled to Dallas with about 90 of my fellow Harding students for a field trip for our Living World Religions class. All things considered it was a great experience. I mean, sure I was cramped on a crowded and uncomfortable bus for 12 hours out of the weekend and we had to switch hotel rooms at 2am on Saturday night, but hey. It was a chance for a class to become more than a textbook, which is something that hasn't happened to me in a really, really long time. On Friday, we visited a Hindu temple, a Buddhist wat, a mosque, and a Sikh temple (where we ate delicious Indian food). On Saturday we went to a synagogue service, where we watched 2 bar mitzvahs. We finished up by visiting a Baha'i worship center and a Soka Gakkai Buddhist place of worship. I also got to have dinner with my parents and my sister, and worship on Palm Sunday with brothers and sisters or a different racial background than myself. And I could go into details about the people that I met and the little things that happened that I will never forget, but they're not going to mean anywhere mean as much to you (whoever you are) as they do to me. But there are some things that I want to share.

Something that I noticed is that people really are all the same. I think I've been in the Harding Bubble a little too long. Nah, I won't blame Harding- make that the Church-People Bubble. I've been in the Church-People Bubble for the past 20 years, basically nonstop. But really, all of the people outside of these bubbles are the same too.

Because no matter what religion you are, you have beautiful children. They cry or throw a fit and have to get taken out of worship service, synagogue service, the room with the Buddha shrine. They love to learn, to practice, to participate, to help. They love to receive love, to ride on Daddy's back during Friday evening prayers, and wear the prayer shawl that Daddy wore on his bar mitzvah. They love to show love, to pass out forks to all of the guests that don't know how to eat the food without them, to wave goodbye to every single person who walks out the door of the temple. They are beautiful.

Everyone is looking for solutions to the problems in the world and inside themselves. Whether you look for it in chanting or praying, in Baha'ullah or Christ, in five pillars or four noble truths.

Everyone has something right. God is Holy. God is One. God is Just. God is merciful. Incarnate God exists. All people are created equally. There is a possible end to all suffering.

When I was at the Hindu temple on Friday morning, I was retold a legend that I had also been told several times before. It seems like everyone has a version, Hindus, Jains, Sufis, Buddhists, everybody. It goes something like this... A king puts five blind men (who have never before seen or heard about an elephant) in a room with an elephant. He asks each man to explain to him what he perceives an elephant to be like. One feels the elephant's leg and responds, "An elephant is like a tree trunk". Another feels the elephant's side and responds, "An elephant is like a wall". Another feels the elephant's trunk and responds, "An elephant is like a tree branch". Another feels the tusk and responds, "An elephant is like a pipe". The final blind man feels the tail and responds, "An elephant is like a rope."

I think the story is supposed to point out that everyone is a little bit right (although it seems to me they were all mostly wrong), and they at least did the best that they could, considering their circumstances. They all had something right.

Everywhere that I went on Friday, I heard four speakers, or four different religions, say that they felt that their religion and their faith made them a better person. That is one of the reasons that these individuals claimed to have stuck with their faith. I started to wonder if my faith makes me a better person. I wasn't so sure it did, but I think it's supposed to. Then I realized that all the things I was hearing about, the praying the meditating, the worshipping with the community, those are all things that my faith involves as well. I suddenly felt my faith being stretched. I wasn't doubting, I just felt like I had been stretched, perhaps just a tad too far. Maybe instead I should be asking myself what a "good person", a "better person" actually is. I mean what does that even mean? Is there something that is missing from my faith, or something that I am just not doing? Or an I a good person, and I just don't feel like I am?... I felt very confused by Friday evening- not about my faith or other faiths, and not even about my salvation. I was just wondering if these people who see themselves as better people because of their religious practice would see me as better because of my religious practice.

This weekend, our teacher talked a little bit about how if you are willing to genuinely listen to someone, they will be willing to listen to you. This is always something you hear, but after this weekend, it actually seemed like a possibility. These people were willing and able to confidently share their faith with others. I want to be able to do that, but with the Truth! How much of a flop would I be if I tried to share why I do what I do with them?! I don't know, maybe I wouldn't flop, but that's just it; I don't know what would happen, because I don't know that I have explained my faith to someone who didn't share it or at least sympathize. I'm out of practice.

When we were studying Jainism, our teacher mentioned the elephant parable. I remember him telling us that, luckily, the real king doesn't set his blind subjects loose on an elephant and demand to hear their descriptions... He tells us ahead of time what he already knows, what the elephant really looks like. Then He guides us through the elephant room. So even though we can't see the big picture and can only feel out one part at a time, the elephant is not something we have to be scared of or confused about.

To sum things up, this weekend gave me a new sense or urgency to practice sharing my faith and find out how to do it in a loving and respectful, but also confident and effective way. I also have a stronger desire to keep seeking God- to test the spirits and examine the teachings. To make sure that my faith remains something that I actually have faith in.



The largest statue of the Buddha in North America happens to be located in Keller, Texas, of all places!


At the Hindu Temple, we witnessed a couple performing a puja.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Transcend all my Striving

For my Bible credit this semester, I'm taking a class over living world religions. It's quite intriguing and I really enjoy it. I can only imagine how much I would enjoy it if it were held at anytime other than 7:30 in the morning, but still. Anyway, there's a lot of reading involved, and for class on Tuesday, we were assigned a reading over Sikhism. Honestly, I thought Sikhism was just an offshoot of Hinduism that somehow intermingled with Islam, and "tada!"... Sikhism. I thank the Lord he never put me in a position where I was trying to explain Sikhism to anyone, especially a Sikh, because I fear I would have been terribly offensive.

However, since I have not yet finished this reading, I still don't know much about Sikhs and what they believe. But apparently, "Sikh" means disciple. Disciple of the Supreme Being, and the gurus who wrote the Sikh scriptures. These gurus were teachers, but Sikhism has a really rich tradition of poetry. Which is cool. So from my understanding, the idea was that you don't need to worship an avatar or idol of the one Supreme God. This life force is all spirit and you truely worship it inwardly, not through rituals and sacrifices. The first Sikh guru, Guru Nanak, wrote this poem and it is part of the Adi Granath, a sacred Sikh text. And I think it's my new favorite poem. I'm sure it was originally in Sanskrit or something and probably sounded even more beautiful, but English doesn't do too bad here:

"If in this life I should live to eternity, nourished by nothing save air;
If I should dwell in the darkest of dungeons, sense never resting in sleep;
Yet must your glory transcend all my striving; no words can encompass the Name.
If I were slain and my body dismembered, pressed in a hand-mill and ground;
If I were burnt in a fire all-consuming, mingled with ashes and dust;
Yet must your glory transcend all my striving; no words can encompass the Name.
If as a bird I could soar to the heavens, a hundred such realms in my reach;
If I could change so that none might percieve me and live without food, without drink;
Yet must your glory transcend all my striving; no words can encompass the Name.
If I could read with the eye of intelligence paper of infinite weight;
If I could write with the winds everlasting, pens dipped in oceans of ink;
Yet must your glory transcend all my striving; no words can encompass the Name."

I was in church today and our speaker talked a lot about righteousness. How we were made righteous because of Christ. Christ is righteous. The only righteous one, and all that we are that is righteousness in God's eyes is really the righteousness of Christ. I just finished reading the book of Isaiah. All our righteous acts are like filthy rags. Like the smell in the lady's room that hasn't been cleaned in forever. Where you run in, do your business, wash your hands real good, and then run out- all in the 65 seconds that you are able to hold your breath. Yeah, nothing righteous about that.

My righteousness is His. My power is His. My love is His. My strengths are His. Every good thing that I possess is good because it is His. I forget this as I live my life, always striving. Usually for things that will bring me happiness. Granted, He's given me so much grace that the things He would desire to have me do often are the things that bring me happiness. But they often aren't, and at those times, I normally catch myself going my own way, and continue anyways. When I strive for my own glory though, it's never as glorious as I expect it to be. Like when you see advertisements for a grand fireworks show, and when you get there, the show last five minutes and all of the fireworks are the same color. Just not that glorious. Because I'm wandring off on my own way, forgetting that I have His power, His glory, His righteousness, rady and waiting for me when I decide to let Him lead. Nothing I could ever conjure up from myself could create something glorious. It's like the guru said. His glory must transcend all my striving.

The poem that I quoted earlier has a refrain, also by the Guru Nanak. One line of it says, "Only by grace can we learn of our Master." I feel like grace is all I ever write about anymore. But I can only write about the things He has given me, so I guess it's good. I guess I'm learning a lot.

Be blessed.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Another Chapel-Happening

Many things happen chapel...

Today I had a significant amount of coffee in my system by the time 9 o'clock rolled around. On Tuesday and Thursday, when I have Bible at 7:30 am, I tend to consume a great deal of coffee. And today, being unusually nippy for April, I made sure to bring plenty to keep me warm AND awake. So needless to say, I was actually sentient this morning. And it was choir chapel, so it was good that I would actually be able to relax and enjoy their performance. Well, I thought I would be able to relax and enjoy their performance.

I don't remember the first song that was sung as part of actual chapel, but the second one was "Awesome God". But like the one where there's that echo and then the girls and guys sing totally seperate things. Anyway, there's that little bridge, where everyone sings all together:

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, power, and love
Our God is an awesome God


And I seriously think I had a vision just then.

It was like I saw all of the kids in Vienna. But they were older. And there were so many people. They weren't having church in the youth center, they were having it in a bigger building, and still the people were spreading out into the hallways. They were just crammed in there! And they were all praising God, lifting Him up.

It was crazy. Tears welled up in my eyes. Suprise, suprise. People around me probably thought I was losing it. I thought I was losing it. But wait. It gets better.

For the devotional, the guy talked about unity in the body, and how there is a place for everyone. How everyone is needed because the collective body needs every individual's strength. I don't think the chapel-talker mentioned this, but it reminded me of the narrative at the end of Acts when the ship that is taking Paul to Rome gets caught in a serious storm. They thought they were gonna die, so some of the men tried to sneakily escape on the lifeboat. But Paul told them that all would survive the shipwreck and make it safely to shore. However, if these men left the boat, those onboard would not survive. So they cut away the lifeboat and made sure that everyone stayed onboard the ship. And sure enough, everyone survived the wreck. Perhaps not mentioned in the chapel talk, but pertinent, nonetheless.

Then the devo ended and the choir got up to sing. And would you guess, the first some they sang was in German. Being in German, I wasn't really able to follow it, but I really caught one word. Heilige. Holy.

Aaaand, I cried some more.

Awesome. Holy. Able to heal the ailing body. His own body. I was walking on clouds for the rest of the day. How wonderful His encouragement is!